People told me, and they still do, that life is like a game of chess. I never saw it that way. That may be why I never had the patience to learn the game of chess. Chess is purely intellectual and cold. I can see the board at all times. Every piece has a designated…
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Being single sucks.
Being single sucks. If you tell me that you are living your best life as a single person, I must tell you that I don’t believe you. I’m not saying that you are lying. I am saying that you never experienced love. I was married for five years, and I am now divorced and single…
Atheist.
I love talking to atheists about God. It is so much fun. The discussion usually starts like this: Them: “So, Cristian, you say you believe in God? You believe there is an old man up in the sky with a notepad constantly writing down what you do right or wrong and listening to prayers all…
You and I.
Dating … Man, is it rough out here, or what? Sometimes, it feels like walking through a minefield. Wherever you walk, something goes off. A walking red flag is searching for another red flag. From my experience as a 38-year-old divorced man, I can genuinely say that dating at my age is the greatest ego…
Go back!
It hurts, I know. Pressure creates diamonds, and the pain is fuel. You asked for something. You asked to make a difference. Everything has a price. Is it too expensive? You are alone, and you feel lonely? You look around yourself and see all of your former friends progressing while you seem stuck in a…
Alone again.
Alone again. Stuck in your head, and it’s like the ultimate war between heaven and hell. “You are not going to make it” – screams out the devil while listing all your memories of how you screwed up again and again. All the skeletons out of your closet rush up into your mind. The memories…
Overplaying.
Maybe you are overplaying your hand. Pressure is a good thing; it creates diamonds, but putting unnecessary pressure on yourself is pointless. I put unnecessary pressure on myself by living, in my mind, in the past or the future. When I return to the present moment, everything is fine—not necessarily good, but okay. Two ways…
We trust.
Let life touch you; don’t let it kill you, but let it touch you. This beautiful quote by Jim Roh carries so much weight and wisdom. How many times have you tried to drown the pain and existential suffering that you carry just to find out that it floats? It fucking floats. Turn around and…
No Kingdom.
It’s a paradox of our modern world- never before have people been so comfortable yet so burdened by their egos, leading to a unique form of suffering. Everywhere you turn, you encounter individuals who perceive themselves as kings and queens, a testament to the pervasiveness of self-importance in our society. We are so ‘in love’…