“Seek, and you will find.” – Matthew 7:7
Seek until you find it.
God, the partner, the job, the career, the friends, or the lifestyle.
“You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.” – Jeremiah 29:13
So seek with all your heart and with all your being, and you will find whatever you are searching for.
One of the hardest things to do in life is to keep wanting what you want after a long time of not getting it.
You tell everybody that you want a good, lean, and healthy body. You start going to the gym, and you go hard, but after three weeks, you feel soar everywhere and don’t see any results. Worse than that, you may have gained a few pounds because of the shock your body received.
You quit. You tell yourself and everybody around you that it is not for you. God and the universe don’t want you to have a good, lean body.
Big mistake.
After six months of constantly going to the gym, you’ll start seeing significant results, and you will start tweaking your training sessions so that you feel soar after every session because you get into a place in your mind where you tell yourself that if you are not soar, you did not train correctly.
After ten months of constantly going to the gym, you will start tweaking your meals—what you eat, how you eat it, when you eat it, and with whom you eat it.
God and the universe are not against you. You are just lazy. You don’t want a healthy and lean body. You just kind of want it, but if it does not fall out of the sky, you give up on yourself.
You tell yourself and everybody around you that you want a personal relationship with God.
You start praying for three minutes daily with half your heart and your mind scattered in ten thousand different places.
You do that for two weeks, and because nothing happens, you give up and tell yourself and everybody else that God does not exist.
I invited Him into my life, you say, and He did not come.
Well, my friend, what did you expect? Did you honestly expect Him to appear to you in a burning bush like He did to Moses after two weeks of mumbling gibberish? Are you that arrogant?
God wants all of your heart.
“You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.”
- Jeremiah 29:13
It’s been two years since you started your “hoe phase”.
You had enough, and you say you are only dating to marry from now on.
One month in, and three dates later, you quit. No good people out there.
Come on, man. You know better than that.
After every hoe phase, you need at least six months of cleansing. At least six months of abstinence from sex and interaction with people who are also in their hoe phase.
Everything has a price. Every action has an equal and opposite reaction.
Consequences.
In your hoe phase, you need to have a specific energy and interact with people in a certain way. The way you dress, the way you walk, the way you speak. Everything is done in a certain way to attract the people who want and appreciate someone in a hoe phase.
Now you want to find someone to marry.
You’ll need different energy, talk differently, and dress and walk differently.
You can do it, too, but you don’t want to go through the cleansing phase because it is hard and lonely.
You keep around a few fuck buddies until you are forty, and then you become panicky.
You go from arrogant and superior to panicky because you realize life is shallow and empty without a family and children.
Neither of those two energies will secure a good and decent life partner.
Search, and you will find.
Search until you find it.
I want to be a writer, a filmmaker, and an influencer.
After twenty blogposts and fifteen shorts posted on social media with no views and no likes, you give up.
Now, you want to be a welder.
Two months into that, you decide you want to drive a truck for the rest of your life.
Search, and you will find.
Search until you find it.
Like I’ve said. It is extremely hard to keep wanting what you want after a long time of not getting it.
That is the test.
If you give up on yourself and your dreams, it means you don’t really want yourself to succeed, and you don’t really want to make your dreams come true.
You just kind of want it.
But you need it to fall out of the sky.
It won’t!
With love, yours truly, Cristian.
P.S.: I am writing this as a 39-year-old divorced for six years, bad reputation, with more than 170 blog posts in one and a half years, over 700 reels on Instagram with 36 followers, a single father, a shitty job, and 11 months of going to the gym.
My heart is full of hope!
Don’t tell me it can’t be done.
I don’t believe you.
God bless.